4th Year anniversary celebration

​We celebrated our fourth wedding anniversary yesterday and I love Ryan more than I ever have before. Most years since we've been married, I've made an anniversary video about our year together.

In truth, our life is wonderful. But there are hard things and last year, I struggled with how painful life truly can be. Choosing joy didn't feel like an option with what I went through. Through it, Ryan loved me and helped me find a way to see this beauty again. But I make these videos for us every year because, though life can be painful, these moments in the video are what I remember. Even in pain, Ryan has been by my side helping me see this joy, community, and abundant life in everything. And we've together chosen that when we look at life, we will see these things and we will work hard to choose joy. This year we've found so much of this joy in our friends, family, and community.

​Ryan, thank you for walking with me through darkness and taking my hand toward the light. When I look back, I see the fingerprints of God all over this life. You are the strongest most tender man I know and I am always in awe that somehow you picked me. Even in the hard things, how sweet this life is with you and how full of goodness. I hope you see the absolute joy you bring me through this video. I love you with all my heart. Happy Anniversary.  <3
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